we chase the sun down the mountain passenger seat of your car i watch the light on the water sink through the bottom, to dark i wonder will they let the stars out or will it just swallow them whole you might have to turn on your headlights but i know you'll find your way home i've felt this fear for a while now spread out and root like disease we pass a sign on the corner freedom of speech under siege so let's start the war on our silence i guess i'll go first if you'd like and then if we wake up tomorrow and we have to leave this behind when the sun is finally down what are we gonna do now? i know you don't have the answer i know it'd sound dumb if i asked let's just forget all about it i'll shut up and let the sun pass but you know the way to my heart now you tell me you think it's alright i know by the end you'll be taller you'll learn how to sleep through the night

is it okay if i get angry for a second would it be alright if it were my turn to get mad you hit the gas and drove the car straight into traffic i pull the parking brake, we screech into a stop i tire of circling back of wanting to escape you you're never tired, i can see it in your eyes you tore my heart out just to prove that you could take it would it be bad if i admit i didn't mind? and in the end, when we are seated at the table, bumping elbows knees and hands and wrists whatever we can touch you strike the match and smiling, you ignite the tablecloth the room engulfs in flames and now i realize that i've promised you too much thought i convinced myself that i would have to hate you but when you look at me like that i couldn't if i tried and when you stand too close for comfort, i must shift away when all i want's to turn around and look into your eyes so i admit it! maybe i'm a bit in love with you but it's not like i wanted to, too tragic to believe and every punchline where you press your hand against mine i'm not sure if i should kiss you, or just punch you in your teeth and i'm an idiot, for i know this will never be i'll dream of it in secret, watch the flames dance in your eyes and as the smoke clears and we emerge from the burning house we turn around for one last time to wave and say goodbye so i admit it! fine, i'm totally in love with you but it's not like i wanted to, got pulled in by your star and as our universe expands and drifts so far away the force pulls us together, though i wish it was your arms a thousand miles away a neutron star lights up your face collapsed into a black hole, feel it tear our world apart but i know we can't help ourselves, if not now, maybe later? if it's just a few more seconds, would you hold me in your arms?

there's a little child running round this house and he never leaves, he will never leave and the fog comes up from the sewers and glows in the dark baby alligators, in the sewers grow up fast, grow up fast anything you want, it can be done how did you go bad? did you go bad? did you go bad? some things will never wash away did you go bad? did you go bad?

how come it's so cold? the fire has carried the weight of this smoke to replace every cloud there's no likeness of you in the sunset, a lonely red giant that slowly sinks down i wish i could speak with the stars a blanket of ashes now smothers their light i'm left to rely on a patchwork of memory a false constellation that you've left behind but i'm gonna learn how to live in the dark for i only love as i crumble apart and though i can't breathe in the smoke, i'll hold on if i know there's a chance this is still what you want we'll always see the same stars could that be enough? how come it's still dark? i thought i had slept through the night, but the moon still hangs over the sky reflect of sunlight, you'll fade with the morning i can't let you leave without saying goodbye do you know i'm scared that all that i am will be nothing, what you saw in me is now gone and when you come find me whoever you thought i could be will have left with the moon at the dawn for now that i've learned how to live in the dark i fear when it leaves me i'll crumble apart but i'll fall asleep if you promise that when i wake up i can still be the one that you want we'll always see the same stars could that be enough? i have to wake up from this bad dream, i already know how it ends you keep calling my name, but i know i won't find you until it's too late right as the light passes over my face at last now, you see who i am is that not enough? so if i lose you somewhere in the dark, i promise i'll meet you again in the stars if you believe that there's nothing you might leave behind, could you spare me a piece of your heart if only i'd be who you want could that be enough?

it's growing dark i should get home tonight i'd rather spend alone i was invited to your party i smiled and said i couldn't go i know it's not what i should do i fear i'll lose myself in you and then i'll hit the brakes too fast my headlights spiral through the trees i'm too frightened to take the next step i fear tripping, losing my breath but i scraped knee is nothing like falling apart do you love me, or am i what's left? if i were anybody else i know we'd get through this together but i know you need something better someone that i could never be and i'm a fool for wanting more i guess i'll just spend my nights dreaming wake up to sounds of tires screaming a flash of light, the dark of sleep one last question that slips from my breath do you love me or am i what's left?

you know i love you, but i can't watch you drown head underwater, you keep pushing me down as our hands reach at its surface grasp for air to fill our lungs self-fulfilled prophecy, you've finally come true i watch the daylight as it slips from my view, i can't feel its shape around me, i don't know what it's become i fear soon it's nothing, we've sunken so deep watch the life as it spills through the cracks of your teeth though it burns to let you hold me in your arms you're the only one who loves me in the dark you know i love you, but i think i'm still sick the rot has spread straight from my roots to my libs but i'll carry who i've promised though they drag me through the ground and i could tell you, but would you understand? wish i could touch you without using my hands but they thrash without a purpose, overtaken, left to drown no, i can't keep fighting, i have to come clean at first sight of the bottom, i'll say what i mean but it seems so never-ending, almost gone no, you would only ever love me in the dark but i can't be the one you need if i reflect what's in your eyes, i won't return like a moth burns out a light too close to touch, too much to fight and i never learn i never learn do i let you down? i let you down i can't touch you without burning my lungs out is it too late now? it's too late now gasp for air, i know there's nothing but the drown i set myself alight, i lose for what you need but i know you'll only ever love me when i leave

everyone's sick and tired of thinking they'd just like something else to do you say you'll never understand them i find it hard to think that's true they've all grown awfully bored with dreaming won't put their faith in something new can you remember yours in detail? can't say with confidence i do but if there's one thing that i'm sure of is they can't bear to face the truth no, they'll hold onto things forever it's all that they know how to do and even if the world is ending they've all got nowhere else to be they'll always keep remaking movies at least someone might pay to see and i know already they'll all love you i hear it in the way you speak always so sure of your direction i don't know what you want from me i guess i'd hate to disappoint you you know i'll always feel that way you seem to answer your own questions i never know what's left to say but if there's one thing that i'm sure of when i grow old, i'll understand why i hold on to things forever to watch them crumble in my hands and even if the world is ending we'll all have nothing else to do they'll always keep remaking movies what else do they have left to lose? i know these things take time i know these things take time i'm sure i'll learn to lose i'll leave this all behind i'm only ever your reflection my twisted face inside your eyes if only i could be more like you i hope you know at least, i tried i know you hate to talk of leaving you say it makes you have bad dreams but i can't spend my whole life waiting i've never known how else to be but if there's one thing that i'm sure of i'm just like anybody else i'll do whatever to feel needed by something bigger than myself and even if the world is ending, well, i'll have nowhere else to be i'll watch the remake of that movie the one i always meant to see you think i'll find all that i've wanted? if i could only just believe, i know these things take time